I Am Afraid of An Se-young": World No. 2 Wang Zhi Yi's Tearful Confession After 10th Straight Loss
"To be honest, these two finals were the most unbearable moments for me. But at the same time, they clearly showed me where I need to go."
"First, I want to express my sincere respect to An Se-young. Winning two consecutive titles is not something anyone can do. But from my perspective, this result is extremely painful. Through these two finals, I painfully realized that the world number two ranking means nothing on the court."
"After the defeat in Malaysia, I spent the entire week analyzing only that match. I watched the video dozens of times, identifying my mistakes, and worked with my coaching staff to develop countermeasures. I kept reassuring myself that the India Open would definitely be different. But the result was an even faster defeat in just 43 minutes. At that moment, I heard the sound of all my efforts collapsing."
"Something felt off from the pre-match warm-up. In An Se-young's eyes, I saw a composure as if the conclusion had already been decided. Meanwhile, I was consumed by the obsession that 'I must win this time.' That psychological difference may have determined the outcome even before the match began."
"My playing style is aggressive. Pressuring my opponent's court and seizing control with a fast tempo—that's my way. But today, An Se-young eliminated the very 'space' where I could attack."
"What surprised me most was An Se-young's positioning. Every time I tried to hit hard, An Se-young was already standing in that space, anticipating it. As if reading my mind, she was moving to the next position even before I hit the shuttlecock. I was completely caught in that predictive ability."
"In an early rally, I confidently launched a cross-court smash. The angle was perfect, and the speed was sufficient. But An Se-young was already there, returning it with ease. At that moment, chills ran through my entire body. I thought, 'An Se-young already knows my next move.'"
"I could hold on until the score was 4-4. But after that, my play suddenly began to collapse. Drop shots that I would normally make easily hit the net, and I couldn't even control simple returns. Meanwhile, An Se-young accurately scored point after point, widening the gap."
"It became 8-2, and in an instant, the gap widened to 12-6. My mind went blank. The thought 'Am I collapsing like this again?' flashed through my head. The nightmare from Malaysia was repeating itself. The racket in my hand felt several times heavier than usual."
"The 11-point interval arrived. As I walked off the court, I felt my legs trembling. It wasn't from nerves. It was the trembling of a loser who was already beginning to accept the match result. My coach patted my shoulder and said, 'Stay calm,' but I didn't sense confidence even in his voice. The 60-second break felt as long as 60 years."
"My coach said, 'Stay calm, find your rhythm,' but I couldn't even answer properly. Inside me, the will to fight and the desire to give up were colliding simultaneously. At that moment, I was showing my weakest side as an athlete."
"The situation didn't improve afterward. Rather, An Se-young pressed even harder. When I tried to attack, she defended; when I took a defensive stance, she scored with attacks. It was perfect game management."
"Afterward, I desperately scored a few points and managed to narrow it to 15-13. For a moment, I saw hope, but that too was an illusion. An Se-young scored six consecutive points and took the first set 21-13."
"During the break between sets, I covered my face with a towel. I felt like crying. No, maybe a few tears had already fallen. I was angry at myself, wondering if it was okay for the world number two to collapse so helplessly."
"The second set was a battle to preserve my last shred of pride. I took the lead early on. When I was ahead 5-2, I heard cheering from the stands. The voice 'Wang Zhi Yi, you can do it!' echoed in my ears."
"But that lead didn't last long. When An Se-young shifted into higher gear, my 5-point lead vanished in an instant. 7-7 tie, then I was reversed to 9-11. My stamina and mental strength were both hitting rock bottom simultaneously."
"At 14-9, there was a scene I'll never forget. After a short exchange at the net, I caught a perfect opportunity. An Se-young's court was wide open, and I aimed precisely there. But incredibly, An Se-young closed that distance in a flash and saved the shuttlecock with a diving motion."
"The moment I saw that scene, something inside me completely broke. I thought, 'Is this player even human?' No matter how perfect an attack I make, An Se-young blocks it. That's when I understood what the emotion of despair truly feels like."
"After that, the match was one-sided. 17-9, 19-10, and then 21-11. The moment the final shuttlecock left my racket and went out, I wanted to kneel right there on the spot. But I barely held back. I told myself I had to maintain at least some dignity."
"When shaking hands at the net, An Se-young said to me, 'It was a good match.' I don't know if she meant it sincerely or was just being polite, but I only nodded. I felt like my voice would tremble if I spoke."
"After the match, reporters poured out questions. Questions like 'How will you prepare for the next match?' and 'Do you have any special plans to beat An Se-young?' I only gave formal answers. If I had spoken my true feelings, the headline would have been 'Wang Zhi Yi completely surrenders to An Se-young.'"
"When I returned to the locker room alone, tears finally poured out. In a place where no one was watching, I cried for a long time. The world number two title had never felt so meaningless."
"Looking at our head-to-head record, I am 4 wins and 18 losses against An Se-young. The recent 10-match losing streak is the darkest record of my career. Now among Chinese fans, the saying 'Wang Zhi Yi always loses when she meets An Se-young' is openly circulating."
"'An Se-young Phobia.' When I first heard this term, I was angry. As a professional athlete, I didn't want to admit that I feared a specific player. But now I admit it. I am afraid of An Se-young."
"Every time I enter the arena and see An Se-young standing on the opposite side of the net, my heart starts beating faster than usual. The night before matches, I can't sleep properly. This isn't nervousness—it's fear. It's the most fatal weakness for an athlete."
"But I cannot crumble here. The world number two ranking is something I earned through years of effort. To maintain this position, I must overcome this fear."
"I will face An Se-young again in the next match. I may lose again. But I will not give up. I must climb over this wall someday. Otherwise, my career will only be remembered as 'the number two who couldn't surpass An Se-young.'"
"I record today's defeat. And I vow: I will return stronger next time. The higher the wall that is An Se-young, the greater the sense of achievement will be when I overcome it."
"It's painful now, but I believe this pain will make me stronger someday."